Looking back at that time, every step was so difficult. I took multiple jobs just to save money and realize my dreams. I walked silently on the streets in a city with no relatives and no reason, only tears can heal all of the discomfort. But these unhappiness are all gifts from life, and there will always be a day when the moon and stars will shine for me.
Time flies and I have been living in the UK for two years.
Because my family environment was not good enough to support me to study abroad, I worked hard for four years in college, did internships, received scholarships, and saved this little money. Finally, in the year I graduated from college, I have the ability to study abroad, and fulfill my last wish during my student days with my hard work.
After flying for more than ten hours, I left the country. This was the first time I stepped into Europe alone with a 30kg suitcase. I have done a complete psychological construction for all kinds of obstacles, and gradually I am no longer afraid of everything. Maybe it's because the city is too big, and many small things in my daily life can warm my heart. In my memory, I was in a terrible mood that day. I failed the exam I prepared all night the day before, it rained heavily, and when a car passed me on the road, the tires hit me with mud and splashed all over me. I am so wronged, but no one can listen to my complaints. I was walking on the streets of England with tears in my eyes. Suddenly, a mother led her daughter and passed me. The little girl was wearing a pink raincoat and rain boots. I subconsciously gave her a smile from the bottom of my heart, even though my mood was still low at the previous moment. I have received countless goodwill on the streets of the UK, and of course there are occasional malices. Some racists are not friendly to Chinese faces. They shouted at me to go back to Asia, and pointed at me and said unbearable words. But everything that happened here, no matter good or bad, made me really feel that I was working hard for my life.
On my birthday’s eve this year, my dad and mom suddenly appeared downstairs in my dormitory. "This is the south of England, not the south of Taiwan!" Those who are frugal are willing to spend such a long time on the plane. Their sudden appearance also made me realize that I have grown up, I will start to worry about whether they have suffered any grievances on the way here; whether they have taken care of themselves; whether they will not be used to eating foreign food, sleeping well, etc. This will be the most profound and touching birthday I have ever spent. Seeing my parents fly abroad without fear of hardships and dangers made me realize that no matter what, I must learn to be strong and alone. After all, I am studying abroad. The people around me must be very busy, and no one has extra energy to care about themselves when they are too busy to take care of themselves.
After leaving my hometown alone for such a long time, I was not used to this kind of loneliness at first, and I even lost several kilograms due to the pressure. I broke down and cried countless days and nights, but I still had to pretend that I was fine, wiped away my tears, smiled and video chatted with my family.
Life is like this, there will always be a mess, but the beauty of rebirth is only worthy of the pain of Nirvana. I am very grateful to the self who cried until his eyes were red and swollen and fell asleep, but still stubbornly refused to admit defeat when he woke up.